Thursday, December 9, 2010

"I will bless the Lord at all times: his praise shall continually be in my mouth." Psalm 34:1

By nature, I'm one of those pathetically negative people. Give me the merest sense of disappointment or frustration and I can wallow in a kind of hopeless funk ad infinitum. I'm pretty good at portraying myself as some sort of tragic figure (the tragedy being that...  ooh, I can't even remember, but I'm pretty sure it was something really cruel. And probably quite ironic too, because nothing bites more than cruel irony). I'm really disgusting in my self-absorption sometimes.:) But, you see, God can change people and it's such a blessing to observe this in myself. I recently came into a realization of sorts, a kind of confrontation with reality, and had to ditch a couple of dreams plans (plans that I'd been avidly awaiting to be realized and which I believed would happen soon - it seems they shall have to remain dreams for some time). Now, if God hadn't been working in me, I'd be getting ready just about now to sink myself in depression and make the people around me suffer as much as I imagine myself to be suffering. I just thank the Lord that He has opened my mind to His teaching and correction. Some time back, my devotional piece said something to this effect: in moments of despair, disappointment, sorrow, etc. praise the Lord. I've consciously tried to follow that and I can say that it does put things in proper perspective, give me a bigger view of the picture. I can see that I am not the center of the universe (always a big shock), that God loves me, is in control, and is bigger than whatever it is that I'd been allowing to overpower me, that the ultimate dream is to be with God in eternity, etc.
I find the song below really helpful at this time. Pls feel free to share songs (or anything) that you think also apply to what I talked about.

Glory to the King by Darlene Zschech

Lord My Heart Cries Out, Glory To The King
My Greatest Love In Life, I Hand You Everything
Glory, Glory, I Hear The Angels Sing

Open My Ears, Let Me Hear Your Voice
To Know That Sweet Sound, Oh My Soul Rejoice
Glory, Glory, I Hear The Angels Sing

You’re The Father To The Fatherless
The Answer To My Dreams
I See You Crowned In Righteousness
We Cry Glory To The King
Comforter To The Lonely
The Lifter Of My Head
I See You Veiled In Majesty
We Cry Glory, Glory
We Cry Glory To The King


Sharkbytes said...

Yup... I hear you. And at my age, it absolutely clear that I need several lifetimes to realize all my dreams. Now I'll have to choose carefully, and reflect on the ones that God has allowed me to fulfill. Not to mention that my dreams aren't always in line with His.
"give them all, give them all, give them all to Jesus-
shattered dreams, wounded hearts, broken toys"

Anonymous said...

Made Me Glad

I will bless the Lord forever
I will trust Him at all times
He has delivered me from all fear
He has set my feet upon a rock
I will not be moved
And I'll say of the Lord

You are my Shield, my Strength
My Portion Deliverer
My Shelter, Strong tower
My very present help in time of need

Whom have I in heaven but You
There's none I desire beside You
You have made me glad
And I'll say of the Lord

You are my Shield, my Strength
My Portion Deliverer
My Shelter, Strong tower
My very present help in time of need

spinninglovelydays said...

@Sharkbytes: I love that song. We sang that a lot in church when I was a young girl. I do have to focus on how blessed I am and to remember that His will and way are best. Thank you!

@Anonymous: Thank you. I do like that song. :)