Whenever I feel an intense need to get out of where we are now simply because I’ve had the opportunity to momentarily step out of it and, with a comparing eye, view it propped next to everything that it lacks or simply is not, I quickly strong-arm my mind to switch to the bigger picture. Shame would then seemingly flow through me, washing away whatever inkling of self-pity, envy, frustration, etc. that might have started to burgeon from within. It is really rather mollifying to know that I can manifest strength of will when I choose to.
I’m not covetous, in the trite sense of the word. Even my worst enemy could not call me materialistic. Perhaps “transcendentalist” might be a bit ambitious for me, but I would like to think that I have enough depth of character to be beyond brands or to place possessions at the bottom of my priority list. I would not call myself an ascetic either as I do love regarding beauty and enjoying some of the finer things in life. For lack of a simpler way of putting it, I believe I’m just a healthy degree of needing and wanting.
My thoughts do veer in the direction of possessions every now and then, but I’m happy to say that I hold very little interest in the items of the times. My attitude towards trends is admittedly a bit scornful, but that’s mostly because of my anti-popular sentiments. The thing is, more often than not, I cherish an object because of sentimentality and not for its monetary worth. I cannot summon enough fondness for an iPod to make it compare with a tattered copy of “The Mad Scientists' Club” . As when I was a child, my primary material treasure remains to be my books. When it comes to things, I do prefer creativity, imagination, and the personal touch to store-bought perfection. It doesn’t mean I cannot appreciate store bought gifts. I simply recognize that there was more effort put into the former.
On the issue of wanting, I do sometimes feel discontent. We could be more stable financially, be in a place that’s more conducive to the lifestyle that we want, or generally just have a better setup. As I stated above, when my mind starts to whirr from the whines of dissatisfaction, all I have to do is to shift perspectives. The closer my viewing angle is to myself, the less objective I can be. There’s the urge to nitpick. When I look at the entirety, the image improves. After this, I can start including a backdrop of home, community, country, etc. As the picture gets bigger, I find more things to be thankful for. Long before I get to the universe, you will find that I have already given up. I cannot even begin to count the blessings I’ve received or the works God has done in my life and He’s not even remotely done. Once I’ve seen the big picture, I can go back to that close-up image and find huge blessings in the smallest details.